Well, I had typed out a nice, long journal entry for my return to DA, but then I stupidly closed the tab which was displaying DA and the journal entry screen...In other words, it was all lost, and it was really good...Since my short term memory of such things sucks, I'm just gonna get over it and say OMGWTFBBQ IM BACK! <3 TO EVERYONE!

I still need to dust off my scanner and install the scanner's software on my new computer, but I do have new art to share and stuff, it's just gonna take me a little while to get back into gear, me being lazy and forgetful and whatnot, but new stuff is coming, I promise!

Lots of love,

-Alan

P.S. Happy Halloween everyone!

HOLY CRAP!!!

Yeah, weee its me, so ya, i havnt been here in FOREVER....actually its only been like 4 months ish, but it feels like forever...

To all my friends here, i didnt forget about you, i just kinda zoned out for a long while, i love you all to death still <3

So ya....ill start being on here a lot now, again, so yay!

As for art, ive been drawing a bit, enough for me to get back up to speed, so in the next week or so, expect some of that..

yeah, so again, im glad to be back, i hope all of my dev friends havnt forgotten me, i love you all, and i look forward to getting back into the swing of things here, so........*HUGGLES*!!!!!!

Much love everyone!!!

PS-if ya still love me, please respond!!!

Gay is a three letter word
just like 'you' and 'mee' when it is misspelled.

Homophobia and You:

I am the girl kicked out of her home because I confided in my mother that I am a lesbian.

I am the prostitute working the streets because nobody will hire a transsexual woman.

I am the sister who holds her gay brother tight through the painful, tear-filled nights.

We are the parents who buried our daughter long before her time.

I am the man who died alone in the hospital because they would not let my partner of twenty-seven years into the room.

I am the foster child who wakes up with nightmares of being taken away from the two fathers who are the only loving family I have ever had. I wish they could adopt me.

I am one of the lucky ones, I guess. I survived the attack that left me in a coma for three weeks, and in another year I will probably be able to walk again.

I am not one of the lucky ones. I killed myself just weeks before graduating high school. It was simply too much to bear.

We are the couple who had the realtor hang up on us when she found out we wanted to rent a one-bedroom for two men.

I am the person who never knows which bathroom I should use if I want to avoid getting the management called on me.

I am the mother who is not allowed to even visit the children I bore, nursed, and raised. The court says I am an unfit mother because I now live with another woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who found the support system grow suddenly cold and distant when they found out my abusive partner is also a woman.

I am the domestic-violence survivor who has no support system to turn to because I am male.

I am the father who has never hugged his son because I grew up afraid to show affection to other men.

I am the home-economics teacher who always wanted to teach gym until someone told me that only lesbians do that.

I am the woman who died when the EMTs stopped treating me as soon as they realized I was transsexual.

I am the person who feels guilty because I think I could be a much better person if I didn’t have to always deal with society hating me.

I am the man who stopped attending church, not because I don't believe, but because they closed their doors to my kind.

I am the person who has to hide what this world needs most, love.

I am the person who is afraid of telling his loving Christian parents he loves another male.

Repost this if you realize homophobia is wrong.



The hate has to stop. It's just as bad as racism sexism...it's the human race at it's worst.

ok, this is gonna become like a perment title for all my general journal updates and such, its easier that way.

Anyway, yeah life kinda sucks, my whole thing with going out with this guy whose a couple years younger didnt work out, mostly on my part, as staying with him would be a big lie to both myself and him, as past feelings....obsessions really, have been comming back to haunt me, as i knew they would...they're never going to go away, but the weird, but kinda not so weird, part is part of me doesnt WANT to lose the thoughts that i still have of....well, him.....the, well, ok if you havnt read my few poetry submissions, i suggest you read all of them now, as they may better explain the nature of these feelings.

So yeah, enough of the depressing life stuff....i havnt submitted much lately due to time, which ive had none of, but am determined to make this weekend, as i have a couple really good drawings i have to get put on here, so thats comming soon...

Not much else to say today, Peace out Girlscouts

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Oh well, im not surprised that my contest ended up sucking to high heavens, i mean, it was my first attempt, and im not disappointed. obviously this means that the lone entry, submitted by my good friend is the winning piece!!!

Grats to that, really truely too, cause its an awesome work of art.

Anyway, now that thats out of the way...i just got back from my 4 day california vacation, which was ok, i mean ive been there many times, done everything, so yeah...LA is a fun place to hang around, especially being gay, cause if you know where to look, well, theres much fun to be had >_<

OH YEAH!!! just a random big personal anouncement thing, i have a boyfriend as of about 2 ish weeks ago, i just didnt think of sharing it here until now, hes ADOREABLE, hes 1 1/2 years younger than me, which is cute cause i like to be the more manly figure in a relationship, his name is Mike Pierce, hes from Massachusettes, hes adoreable, i love him soo much ^_^ i swear we were meant for one another. If i can ill try to get a pic of us together up on here sometime.

Thats all folks!

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